LIFE...

It's funny how sometimes the life you live seems somewhat perfect until something big happens that alters your status such as. Some of these things are employment, weddings, divorces, birth and death.

I recently loss my father +Antonio V. Deleon Guerrero, and I honestly didn't know if my heart or my emotions were strong enough to pull myself back to "normal". A lot of people that I meet up with since my dad's passing tells me to be strong for my mom, most especially. Yes I understand that, but sometimes those words irritate me more than ease the pain I feel inside. I LOSS MY FATHER TOO PEOPLE!!! Sometimes people have no idea that what they say may actually hurt my feelings. I just suck it up and faintly smile when people tell me to be strong.

To me, the fact that I loss my dad wasn't the worse part of dealing with his death. It's the fact that I loss my dad when I was off-island. It was the worst, possible feeling that I've felt in my entire life because together with the fact that my dad died, was the fact that I was so far away and I couldn't do anything about it. Nothing! Nothing at all!!! I was lucky to have Floyd to be by my side through it all. He was the one who remained strong, he was the one that was there for me. He was my savior!

A good friend of mine told me that with my dad's passing, I now have another guardian angel to watch over and take care of me. Those words actually brought a happy tear to my eye because I know it's true.

As discussed in my last post, it was very hard to find a job in Las Vegas. However, after we moved back to Saipan, in a matter of weeks, I was offered a good job. Although I know it took some effort on my part, I'm sure that my dad was watching over me and he knew what was in store for me.

To all my family and friends, thank you so much for your kind words, prayers and support. It will never be forgotten. May the Lord God bless us all!!!