RANDOM THOUGHTS....

A couple of nights ago I was having dinner with my family at a cozy, little Japanese restaurant. As I was enjoying my food, a song came on the restaurants' sound system. It was a song from the Beatles. I immediately thought of my dad (he was a huge fan of the Beatles) and felt like he was there. I don't know, but every time I hear a Beatles song where I'm at, I think of my dad and I honestly believe he's present.
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Is it too much to ask for your family to be by your side? I honestly thought that was actually a given. Was I wrong to think such a thing? I always took my family's side, unless they were clearly wrong. If a family member does not take your side, is that disloyalty?

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I have a condition that will change my life forever. I am a diabetic. THERE -- I said it. It was so hard to accept, but it happened. It was heartbreaking to find out such a thing, but I have to fight this battle for the rest of my life. I LOVE MY LIFE! I'm so upset that I let such a thing happen to me! But it's too late for regrets. All I must do is keep my head up and make changes...taking baby steps, of course.

What's going on?

Today there was a Tsunami Watch going on. One of my friends was actually so worried, he picked up all his kids from school to bring them to higher ground. I, for one, was actually quite worried because although I enjoy an ocean view in my office, after hearing that the island was on a Tsunami Watch, I didn't care for that ocean view any longer! Luckily, the tsunami watch was called off. Whrew!!!

So what's going on with the weather? I know it's typhoon season here, but after all the recent tsunami's in America Samoa, earthquakes in the Solomon Islands, wow -- what's going on in the Pacific?

Have the people in the pacific been bad? Is God punishing us?

Ty what? Typhoon!!!

Typhoon Melor is slowly approaching our island. Yesterday looked like the perfect Friday EVER! But that's what was scary about it. It was like "the calm before the storm" and the people who have never been through typhoons couldn't understand why this typhoon was going to be a super typhoon in a matter of hours when we even had a gorgeous sunset yesterday.

I spoke to people and asked how they prepared themselves and everyone had a different reaction.

"I boarded up our place..."

"I bought snacks to last through the typhoon..."

"I bought a weeks-worth of food..."

"I got my beer and charged up my iPod..."

"All I need is my bottle of wine!"

Honestly, I didn't do much to prepare for this typhoon since the last typhoon I stocked up on batteries, food, etc. Floyd & my brothers are the ones who really secured the houses, etc. I live in a semi-concrete house so if this typhoon blows my roof off my house, that's it for me. So I just packed up most of my clothes and secured the other stuff. Funny thing was I was put in a dilemma where I had to figure out what was valuable and what I could live without.

The winds are just starting to pick up and I'm thankful I had a good night's sleep with air conditioning!!! I also have my battery-operated fan ready for back up....just in case I melt. Hahaha!!!

Prayers are scheduled every Sunday at 9am

Okay, so here's another post I have about religion.

I've been going to mass for my dad practically on a daily basis at 6am at the Mount Carmel Cathedral. I enjoy the early morning masses because it gets my day going. One day I asked my mom if we could attend Sunday mass at 6am instead of 9am and she said we couldn't. Besides the fact that I didn't want to argue with my mom, I just bit my tongue and figured I had to deal with it. Amazingly, she explained why. In Chamorro, she told me that the mass for all the souls who have died is only scheduled for only for the 9am mass on Sunday at the Cathedral.

ME: "But why is it only designated for 9am mass?"

MOM: "Because 9am mass is the misan animas (mass for the spirit of the dead)."

ME: "So you mean to tell me, I can't pray for my dad at 6am mass and only at 9am mass?"

MOM: "No. Ai adai, I don't know why it's like that."

ME: "That's so dumb!"

So apparently, if you didn't get the memo, please note that if you have a family member that recently passed away, you cannot pray for their soul(s) unless you're at the 9am mass at Cathedral. Your immediate cooperation and attention to this matter is greatly appreciated.

GOOD LORD!

I LOVE MY JOB!

I recently got a new job. I'm so super thrilled because the together with the fact that it's the work I love to do, I also work in an awesome work environment with super fun, energetic and nice people! This is the beginning of a whole different career...and within the private sector, too!

LIFE...

It's funny how sometimes the life you live seems somewhat perfect until something big happens that alters your status such as. Some of these things are employment, weddings, divorces, birth and death.

I recently loss my father +Antonio V. Deleon Guerrero, and I honestly didn't know if my heart or my emotions were strong enough to pull myself back to "normal". A lot of people that I meet up with since my dad's passing tells me to be strong for my mom, most especially. Yes I understand that, but sometimes those words irritate me more than ease the pain I feel inside. I LOSS MY FATHER TOO PEOPLE!!! Sometimes people have no idea that what they say may actually hurt my feelings. I just suck it up and faintly smile when people tell me to be strong.

To me, the fact that I loss my dad wasn't the worse part of dealing with his death. It's the fact that I loss my dad when I was off-island. It was the worst, possible feeling that I've felt in my entire life because together with the fact that my dad died, was the fact that I was so far away and I couldn't do anything about it. Nothing! Nothing at all!!! I was lucky to have Floyd to be by my side through it all. He was the one who remained strong, he was the one that was there for me. He was my savior!

A good friend of mine told me that with my dad's passing, I now have another guardian angel to watch over and take care of me. Those words actually brought a happy tear to my eye because I know it's true.

As discussed in my last post, it was very hard to find a job in Las Vegas. However, after we moved back to Saipan, in a matter of weeks, I was offered a good job. Although I know it took some effort on my part, I'm sure that my dad was watching over me and he knew what was in store for me.

To all my family and friends, thank you so much for your kind words, prayers and support. It will never be forgotten. May the Lord God bless us all!!!

I'm sorry...so sorry!

Yes, I know, it's been over a month since my last post! It's been real challenging for me the past month. Just wanted to let my fellow blogger friends know that I am still alive and well! Nothing too interesting happening in my life. Well okay, that's not entirely true. I found a job...then later found out it wasn't meant to be. So I moved on to bigger and hopefully better things.

The news last night said Las Vegas reached its first record-high level of unemployment at over 11%! Sheesh...